Welp.

So after a long week of teaching and everything, I'm just at my witts end. I cannot decide if I want to spend the next 22 years of my life doing paperwork, dealing with parents, dealing with co-workers in which I don't fit in, and dealing with all the extra stuff. I went to school to be a teacher, not to do everything else. I completely have forgotten why I wanted to do this to begin with because I have so much else to do.

Not one person in my department extends help to me in any way, I have to ask for it and even then it doesn't happen. They all think I'm just this terrible person and teacher because I don't see things there way and I'm just done. I think that this may be my last year in the classroom for a while. It's just not fair to keep putting myself through all this.

At least its Saturday and they always go by way to fast, I want to spend the days laying around with the baby but I have so much else to do---which do I choose. It's not even like I can get all the extra work done in my classroom because she'd have to go with me, I can barely clean the house, do the laundry or get anything done because I feel like I'm ignoring her.

I'm trying to work on my thesis and well gee, the only time I can get this done is now at 11 at night, which is completely sucky. I'm loosing so much sleep over everything that its making me sick. I can't handle it all anymore, wishing I could go back to three years ago and not moved here and just went on welfare like everyone else.